Back to Work

I am working on my resume. The time has come that I need to take charge of things for all of us around here and go back to work. It doesn't seem that the court systems are going to do their job so I must do mine. I am working on looking on the bright side - Christopher asks to go to school everyday with Nicholas, I will have my own life outside of the house, a dependable check will be helpful, and the benefits from the county are great. I am sad that Christopher doesn't get to spend the last school free year with me but in the scheme of things it could be worse. I am writing all of this and continuously repeating it to myself, but the truth is I don't believe any of it. I want to be home with my baby one more year and enjoy it and because they are growing up so fast. It's really not fair that Christopher gets treated like this but there isn't anything I can do so I will do what I must. I won't be happy on the inside though. I am still keeping my fingers crossed for a little miracle.