One Year

Today it is one year since the day Jason walked out on us. I did think about it a little today. I guess trying to figure out what I am going to sell in order to continue to pay the Forensic CPA and lawyer will cause a few thoughts about it to pop up - imagine that. I also thought about what a different person I am now. I see things more clearly. I am enjoying being on my own and doing my own things without worrying about anything else besides the kids. Nicholas has changed so much, too. He is not as shy, likes everyone now - not just dad, and he just seems happier and more secure. A year ago, I had a two month baby, a lost and sad little boy, and I didn't know what would happen to us or if we could survive without Jason. Now I see that we are better off and life is going great without him. It makes me think of two Garth Brooks songs "She's Going to Make it and He Never Will" for obvious reasons and "The Dance" - "For a moment all the world was right, how could I have ever known you'd ever say goodbye, and I'm glad I didn't know the way it all would end, the way it all would go, our lives are better left to chance, I could've missed the pain but I'd've had to miss the dance." It just sums up how I feel about everything. We had a great life together until the end, lots of fun and I did love him. I am lucky to have my two little boys and they wouldn't be here if it wasn't for our marriage and time together. So, another year begins for the three of us. This time in a better place and with limitless possibilities in front of us.