Sunday Night

The kids came back in one piece again. Except I don't know if Nicholas' little heart is still in one piece or if it ever will be again. He cried and cried for his dad tonight, the first time in a long time. He just kept crying and then called Jason and begged him to come back. Jason thinks he wants him to come back and get him but what he really means is come back. When they hung up, Nicholas started to cry again. He wanted to know why his daddy can't just come back and live with us and why it has to be so hard. I know why daddy can't come back to live with us but I can't explain that to a four year old. Especially a four year old who worships his dad. It's nights like tonight where I wish the same thing, a chance to go back and change it all and make it right for him.