Looking Forward to Thanksgiving

In just a few days, the kids and I will be off to my parents' house for our Thanksgiving celebration. Nicholas is beside himself since we haven't been there in over a year. Christopher will be a year and this is his first time. I am excited because it's a chance for me to lay on the couch, sleep in, and watch TV, while the kids are occupied by Nana, Poppy, and Uncle Markie! I'll even have a break from Alli because she'll be in the kennel! This year I am very thankful for all of my friends but especially Kristyn, Patty and Rhonda because they take kids for me at the drop of hat, which is when my appointments pop up, and for Lori for listening and keeping me busy on the weekends! I am also thankful for my family - my mom who comes here constantly, even when we just have the sniffles, my dad who gives her up for us, my brother who watches the kids and does everything I tell him to around the house, my Aunt Wendy for calling me everyday to make sure I'm OK and for flying down here to see with her own eyes how we are all really doing, Grammie for checking on me all the time by reading my blogs and emailing me, Melonie and Heather for coming down here to help and calling me to make sure things are good with me and the boys, and Aunt Missy for calling to make sure things are OK and to see if I need anything. I am sure I have left someone out, I am just really thankful for all of the support, prayers and love that surround the boys and I each and every day as we go through this. I love all of you!

Sunday Night

The kids came back in one piece again. Except I don't know if Nicholas' little heart is still in one piece or if it ever will be again. He cried and cried for his dad tonight, the first time in a long time. He just kept crying and then called Jason and begged him to come back. Jason thinks he wants him to come back and get him but what he really means is come back. When they hung up, Nicholas started to cry again. He wanted to know why his daddy can't just come back and live with us and why it has to be so hard. I know why daddy can't come back to live with us but I can't explain that to a four year old. Especially a four year old who worships his dad. It's nights like tonight where I wish the same thing, a chance to go back and change it all and make it right for him.

The Latest

So now we are sick. Luckily, Nicholas is not, but I have a sinus infection, bronchitis, and an ear infection. Christopher has a double ear infection and needs to use his breathing machine because he is coughing and congested. I feel like such a complainer. Let's look at the positive things for a moment. Christopher is turning one so very soon, his birthday party will be at Gymboree. Nicholas is really enjoying school now, he even looks forward to it. I have a great new car, the kind I always wanted but never was able to pick out. There, I need to look at the bright side a little more, I already feel more cheery!