A Stab in the Heart

Every night Nicholas and I tell each other we love each other all the way to our hearts. The other night he added daddy, poppy, nana, and then Jessica. Talk about a stab all the way to my heart. I guess it's to be expected, she probably buys him just as much as Jason does. Only, I thought that was special for people who really loved him and he really loves. I am going to believe that he didn't really mean it, he was just over tired and had no idea what he was saying. It still hurts just thinking about it.

Summer's End

It is almost the end of summer. There are about three more days left, two of which the kids will spend with their dad. The end of summer is so sad. I love the freedom of sitting around in our pj's until we feel like getting dressed. We were very adventurous this summer. In the spirt of the Suburban Diva, who has four kids and travels by car ALONE with them, I wanted to take vacations with the kids. If she can do it, then I can do it. I only have two kids after all. So we went to the beach for a week with my mom. We went to my mom's house for almost a week. Then we went all the way to Connecticut to visit aunts, uncles, and grandparents. I am very proud of myself for this. We had a great time, Christopher is getting old enough to tolerate more and Nicholas is awesome. It feels good to accomplish these things by myself. I also realize that I always did everything myself, I just had someone to talk to or consult with. It's a great feeling to know that I don't need anyone to lean on, I can do it alone and make great memories with my babies. They are growing up so fast that I need to remember all of it before it's over and enjoy them every minute I can. Unless they are screaming and crying, that's another kind of memory . . .