Parent Coordinator Meeting

Not that much fun of a time. Someone was not very polite and does not know the truth if it hit him between the eyes. Enough said.

The Week Ahead

This week brings a session with the Parent Coordinator, hopefully Jason will show this time, a session with Nicholas' therapist and a meeting with the lawyer. On top of that we have skating, spanish, gymboree, and Aunt Wendy is coming for a visit this weekend. Thank goodness the weeks are so busy, they just fly by and keep us busy. I wonder what else will pop up . . .

Dinner Conversation

Nicholas, Christopher and I went to 4:00 Mass yesterday and then Nicholas wanted to go to Steak N Shake for dinner. He didn't just want take out, he wanted to go inside and eat together. We were having a great time, joking, feeding the baby, when Nicholas' eyes teared up and he laid his head down on the table. I asked what was wrong and he said "I'm sad about you and dad. Let's talk about it." "OK, what do you want to say?" "No you talk, talk about it mom." "Well, mommy and daddy aren't going to be married anymore but you can call daddy anytime and go and visit." "Remember when last week and last week and last week daddy didn't come to pick me up but he was supposed to?" "Yes, I remember." "Well, when daddy didn't come last week and last week you yelled at him for not coming to get me right?" "Um, yes, I guess I did." "So you yelled at dad for not coming to get me when he was suppose to come and get me, I heard you, right?" "Did you hear me?" "Yes, I heard you." "Finish your chicken, OK, do you feel better now?" "Yes, I do. What can we have dessert while we have a pajama party tonight?"

The Saddest Story

Every night Nicholas and I tell each other a story before he falls asleep. Tonight he called Jason to say goodnight and they told each other a story. Nicholas' story went like this - "Once upon a time King Daddy, Queen Mommy, Queen Nicholas and Queen Baby were all together. They had fun and lived happily ever after." Jason had no idea what to say, I could hear the silence. Nicholas quickly said goodnight and handed me the phone. My poor baby.

The Next Day

I hate the next day when Nicholas stays at Jason. I know I am doing lots of complaining lately but I am just so tired of all of this. Poor Nicholas is overtired, cranky, and does not want to talk about what happened over at dad's. That is just not a good sign if you ask me. What is the deal?

My Baby

I called Nicholas tonight to say goodnight as I was leaving a Pampered Chef Party. When Jason put him on the phone he was hysterically crying. I asked what was the matter and he said that he needed me. I said that I was on the phone with him and I would be going with him to the Pumpkin Patch tomorrow and that it's OK. He kept crying and Jason told him to say goodnight and I love you. What kind of a heartless man acts like his son's feelings aren't important? Maybe it drives him crazy that Nicholas wants me but he shouldn't make him get off the phone with me. This whole thing is just so aggravating, I want my baby here with me at night!

Update

This morning Nicholas asked if he could wear the necklace that was supposed to be for Jessica and if I could wear the earrings. A huge sigh of relief followed and now the horribleness of giving it Jessica is being avoided. Maybe there is a high power looking out for me, possibly God is a woman? or maybe just feeling sorry for me?

Okaaay

We are in the gift shop at Zoo Boo and Nicholas is looking through these pumpkins that hold earring and a necklace with different Halloween things on them. He finally asks me if he can get one. I told him no, that they are for girls and he said OK. We went outside to wait everyone to come out of the Haunted House and he seemed sad. I asked what was the matter and he said that he wanted to get one of those pumpkins for someone. I asked him who and he said Jessica. Well, what on earth am I supposed to say to that? No you can't get your dad's fiance something? So I said OK, let's go pick one out. He picked one and we bought it and he'll give it to her on his visit on Wednesday. What an awkward situation that was. What a horrible position for me to be in - my child is sweet and wants to do something nice yet I can't stand the person he likes - oh my, I guess this is just the beginning of the fun to come. I think I handled it the right way but I just don't ever know what the right way is lately. I guess I just follow my instincts and see and what happens!

Conversation

Sometimes it's nice to have conversations with the opposite sex. I forget what male opinions are like because all my friends are female and most of the time my talking is done with myself. I think getting to know some new people of the male variety might be nice, strange, but nice.

I Survived

This was the first weekend Jason has taken Christopher since Father's Day. He took him all day yesterday and almost all day today. The kids came back in one piece and Christopher and doesn't seem traumatized. He's was very clingy at first and is already in bed but seems to be just fine. I am still recovering and wondering what it's going to be like when he spends the night. I do hear that it's worse for the mother than the child so I hope it's true. The kids seem to be adjusting, it's just me that's still working on it.

Rings

Some rings should not be worn by some people. It's just not right or classy. It's just not - I can't even find the words for what is wrong with certain rings worn at certain times.

New Tradition

I think Nicholas may have started a new tradition for us. I have Halloween pajama bottoms and when he saw them this year he had to have a pair of Halloween pj's, too. Then he decided that Christopher needed them, too. So now we all have Halloween pj's. I guess every year I'll be hunting for them because we look pretty good in them! My mom even took pictures and I must say we are looking good!