Another Fantastic First

I took both of the kids to the beach with our friends Kristyn and Bash last week. It was such a beautiful day and I had forgotten how calming the beach is for me. The kids rode a surf board for the first time and they were thrilled. Kristyn's brother was really patient with the kids and it meant a lot to Nicholas. Christopher was so good, I am continuously amazed at what a great baby he is. He just hung out on the blanket, played with his toys, watched the boys play, and splashed in the water. I am going to take myself on a trip to the beach when this mess is over to mark my new beginning.

Hmmm

I guess some topics are just never going to be easy to discuss but I must be the hero not the zero.

Interesting Things I Learned Today

1. 50% of first marriages fail, 80% of second marriages fail.
2. Women get remarried in five or more years, men get remarried in one year or less.
3. Art therapy is admissable in court.
4. Be a hero not a zero to your kids, when they are old enough they will remember who was what during the divorce.
5. Whatever age an addict begins using their drug of choice, that's the age they will remain mentally and emotionally no matter what their chronological age is.

A Perfect Moment

There was a huge thunderstorm tonight that woke up the baby. So I ran upstairs to check on him and ended up rocking him. Nicholas came up the stairs with a huge bag of chips and a blanket. He camped out on the floor. Then our dog, Alli, came in and picked out a spot next to Nicholas. All of a sudden there was a huge boom and Nicholas jumped into my lap next to the baby and Alli crawled underneath my legs inbetween the footstool and rocker. The four of us sat there like that until the storm quieted down. I wish I could have frozen us in that moment, it was over all too quickly.

Are you kidding me?

I thought I hired all these people and paid all this money so THEY could do all this paperwork!

The Results

Well, there were no middle of the night phone calls last night so either Nicholas was good or Jason sucked it up and dealt with it, not admitting to a thing this morning. All he had to say was that Nicholas was fine for him. The only problem was that he did put a pull up on Nicholas so he wet the bed and Jason had to change the sheets at 3 am. At least that's something, although I don't really believe that things were as easy as he said.

What Was I Thinking

I shoud have known when Jason was so agreeable to taking Nicholas tonight, so that I could go to dinner with my friends, that I was asking for trouble. I called him to say that I was on my way home around 9:30 and he said that it was time for Nicholas to go to bed so he's just going to keep him at his house. So, tonight is Nicholas' first night at Jason's house. I told Jason he could call me anytime to bring him home if he needed to, his response was that Nicholas will be just fine. We shall see. . . .

Success

Today I successfully took my two children to the Zoo. It was our first "Field Trip," just the three, of us since Jason left. I have to say that I am very proud of myself. I was a little nervous at first, not sure how two kids at the zoo would be. Our only adventures so far have been to Walmart, Publix and the mall. I just let Nicholas be our guide and followed his lead. Christopher is just the best baby and did not even cry once. We even had lunch at the zoo to my amazement. My plan was to get out of there before Nicholas was hungry, but we were having such a great time I just went with it. We ordered a hot dog and chicken nuggets, I ate with one hand and fed Christopher with the other. Nicholas ate and then watched the diver in the manatee tank while we finished. I can't believe how patient he was while Christopher finishd his bottle and I packed everything back up. We are going to be just fine, maybe next we'll try Gatorland!